Laced up and ready to run.
After a very rough night on New Year’s Eve, my wonderful dad drove all the way up to Toronto to go for a run with me yesterday. He was in the car within an hour of me texting my mom that I needed to come home. All those kilometres just to make sure his little girl was okay.
I felt so much better after that run and the time spent I with him. I really appreciated the fact that he didn’t ask me what was wrong, or tried to tell me what to do to get through what happened. He just laced up his runners and asked, “You ready to run?”
He’s an amazing runner and a great coach when I need that extra push to make it to the finish line or run that extra mile. He understands that sometimes it’s hard for me; life is hard for me.
My life isn’t difficult in a sense that I’m deprived or lacking of anything. By all means I am very lucky and blessed. But it is difficult for me to function properly at times. My anxiety and depression can get out of control and drown me completely. Those days are really tough for me. Those days are the ones that I need that extra push or supporting hand.
My family makes me feel whole and I appreciate all that they do to help. I could not have asked for a better family. The love and support I receive from them is everlasting and such a blessing for me. I’m so thankful for all the hard work they have put in to making me a better woman and I hope they will continue to do so. I don’t know where I would be without them. I am lucky. Bless them and thank you God for all the good things you have given me.
In 2017, I want to become a better person, a better human that knows how to cope with her mental illness in a less self-destructive way. I want to be able to have the tools to help me when I am in need. 2017 will be the year I take hold of my mental, emotional, physical and intellectual health and enrich them so that I can be the absolute best version of myself. 2017 will be my year, the year I get myself back.