A letter to you, my love

To my love,

I cannot even begin to express what I am feeling and thinking without acknowledging our roots. The way you pull me close and kiss me will forever have me wondering how this came to be a reality. Once so far away, so indifferent to each other’s existence; brought together by a simple spoken word, “Hey.”

Innocent at first, then more forceful was the bond. Friendly and light, getting to know the person behind the macho exterior you portrayed. It has been quite a journey and a great pleasure to know you and learn about you. To experience all that you are and hope to become. I take great pride in knowing you will strive for nothing less than stellar in your life, always exceeding expectations. This is something that inspires me to surmount any obstacles I will face and to achieve what I know is astronomical.

The journey to getting to know you has not ended, therefore I still have lots to learn about you, and you have lots to learn about me. I want to take the time to write to you, to help you understand what I am holding dear to my heart, to help you understand me as a person. I hope to share this with you so that someday you will apprehend my words and take them seriously.

In my future I see happiness, joy, and a life full of successes and achievements. I can almost taste the adventures I will be going on, feel the inexplicable satisfaction of being able to do all the things I dream of doing. It’s surreal to think that in a few short years it can all be mine; can all be possible.

I will continue to tell you that as I said before, you make me feel safe and at home when you pull me into your arms and hold me close. Being near you calms me and gives me hope of a brighter walk through life. Seeing your eyes sparkle when you gaze at me and feeling you against me, skin to skin, warm and infinitely pleasurable; it is a sensation of pure and utter bliss.

It is my hope I make you feel the same, I only want the best for you, and I will do whatever it takes to make sure you are happy. I may only have known you a short while, but I feel like I’ve know you forever. When we have deep conversations, are intimate together, or simply sitting on a bench close to the lake breathing in the last of the autumn air. I feel a deep connection to you. I feel, I feel…

Sometimes I am at a loss for words for how you make me feel. Attached to you by some invisible bind I can’t escape from. A binding love I can only assume is the culprit. A love so strong and mighty, I cannot possibly break it’s grasp.

As I write this letter to you in the late hours of the night, I think of you and your strong presence. I want to share my happiness and joy with you, I want to be with you. I want to go on adventures with you. I want to show you what we can be and achieve together. I want to know you. I want you to know and understand me. I want you.

I’ll entice you with the words to our song. Here are the words that keep me sane and bound to you when we are apart. Here are the words I cherish, as I cherish you.

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“To Sheila” By: Smashing Pumpkins

Twilight fades
Through blistered avalon
The sky’s cruel torch
On aching autobahn
Into the uncertain divine
We scream into the last divide

You make me real
You make me real
Strong as I feel
You make me real

Sheila rides on crashing nightingale
Intake eyes leave passing vapor trails
With blushing brilliance alive
Because it’s time to arrive

You make me real
You make me real
Strong as I feel
You make me real

Lately I just can’t seem to believe
Discard my friends to change the scenery
It meant the world to hold a bruising faith
But now it’s just a matter of grace

A summer storm graces all of me
Highway warm sing silent poetry
I could bring you the light
And take you home into the night

You make me real
Lately I just can’t seem to believe
You make me real
Discard my friends to change the scenery
Strong as I feel
It meant the world to hold a bruising faith
You make me real
But now it’s just a matter of grace

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Steadfast. Persistent.

With a fiery love,

-E

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